MMT

I'm fighting a losing battle with myself. I want to be over the ED, but I want to be rail thin, and I know I can't have both. I want people to look at me and say, "OMG - she's sooo skinny." But, in reality I know that will never happen.Also, I've been thinking about this a lot, but I never post about it because I sound crazy, but I really really really want to have a baby. More than anything...even more than my ED. I thought it was a phase, but the feeling has only gotten stronger. I don't know what to do. I've had names and a theme picked out forever, and I really want to do this. Only problem...no man. :o( But I'm about to go insane and do whatever I have to do (just kidding...not there quite yet).Well, I have a ton of errands to run and I have to get ready for work. I'll write more later. Ciao.